UGH! OMG! i cannot do ANYTHING right! OMFG...or maybe its just that people dont get me. either way it sucks.....it sucks ass...it sucks FUCKING ass....joy...im not really sure what to say...but its all in a reply to your lj post...im sorry...it wasnt supposed to be like that.

ya'll no what? according to some ppl that come to my site and post anonomously on my chatter box...if you didnt listen to the kind of music i listen to last year...your a poser, lol. well kathleen did it ever occur to you that i did? i mean, i didnt...you right..i just got into it last year....but tahts so stupidly irrelevant...and why the FUCK does it matter to you what kind of music i listen to? is it really that important to you what i do or who i am, becuase you dont like me anyways, you never have...remember? so you shouldnt give a shit..beucase unless your path crosses mine, i dont give a shit about what you do either...but you dont know me...dont tell me what i did, when i did it, or why it happend in my life...

guess what i noticed about a week ago, guys...they spelled my name wrong in my dad obituary. one of the most important memories i have is fucked up. becuase of me. well, my name...but its a part of me..i look at it and it looks ugly now, it shouldnt look ugly...thats really screwed. maybe its a sign. its amazing im not insane with all this SHIT i deal with every FUCKING day. how i have to get brought to tears becuase i fuck everything up...or ppl fuck things up about me... but thats why im a Christian....thats really why...becuase its amazing that i can still have happyness and friends and i life with all this shit going on without someone up there helping out. its really i think the only something special i have...

please dont bother commen ting with some fake ass sympathy shit becasue i really hate that stuff...it makes me feel uncomfortable....really, please dont feel obligated to saysomething, becuase it should come from your heart, guys...not feel like something neccisary...i really dont wanna deal with ppls fake shit right now...but you know i love you guys...tons...i really dont know what i'd do with out you